Why do you keep asking me that? And don't stop.

Therapy.

So I have started therapy againnnnn

I don't think people realize how AMAZING therapy can be on for the soul. We spend 30 minutes to an hour, talking about ourselves. I spent a whole hour ranting to my therapist about a bowling alley incident. It wasn't anything important it was just someone talking to me without any bias. At least that's what I think.

The only thing that bugs me therapy is when it comes towards the end of the session and they ask if I wanna kill someone or myself? Like what? Of course, I say no and that I'm feeling good or whatever. But TBH what? Even if I did want to do those things it makes me feel uncomfortable? Why? I don't know. Maybe because I have wanted to kill myself. And for someone to ask me every time if I want to.... it's a reminder that I don't. That I value my life and where it's at. It's a reminder that I do care about myself. I respect myself. I love myself. And I wouldn't want to hurt myself anymore because I deserve to care for me too. I deserve to have a healthy relationship with myself too.

And no I really don't want to kill anyone else because even if I did why would I tell you? hahahaha

Therapy.

I hope that people can realize how much therapy can help them.

It's talking to someone that doesn't REALLY know you but they tell the truth. The realities of being a better person, not only for yourself, but for others.

Therapy.

Thank you to all the therapist out there! Thank you for listening even if it's the dumbest shit you have ever heard. Thank you for being honest. Thank you for putting in the mind work to better our minds.

And therapist.... I don't want to kill anyone especially myself.

I like it here. I want to stay awhile.

I want this adventure because I was meant to have it.