Is this my first time?

Sex is such a blessing and a curse! Sex is like food, you eat what you like but if you eat to much, you might die. HA! It's actually not like that at all. Sex is interesting. Let's talk about sex. My family didn't really talk to me about sex. They talked about diseases. I didn't know what condoms were or what love was. I didn't know about dick syndrome. I just didn't know. I heard about sex. I mean come on HIGH SCHOOL. I just was innocent. I was 18 and confused. According to Google, losing your virginity has different meaning for everyone. It could mean you have a penis inside you or your bleeding... for some it means nothing. I heard of girls "losing their virginity" to a tire. These girls get hit so hard in the vagina that they bleed and now they are no longer innocent. Sad. Not really they are lucky. I'd rather lose my virginity to a tire than a guy or girl or anyone for that matter. Sex is amazing with someone who respects you. PERIOD. Yes I've had sex with guys who were jackasses... not good. But guys that respect me... well that's HOT. My 18/19 year old self didn't know what to expect for my first time. I watched to much Disney, let's be honest. I was the hopeless romantic. I wanted a guy who treated me like a princess and honestly that's what I expect. I didn't get that. People don't care unless they are in love. But why do we put so much pressure on sex? It's sex. Who cares? Sex is nothing now and days. Like we literally swipe right and left based on attraction. Come on people wake up! WHO CARES? We sleep who we sleep with. End of story. I could say I lost my virginity in a car or I could medically say I lost my virginity in a Four Season Hotel. Either way who cares? All I know is sex is sex. And the Four Season has a heated pool & spa.