Good Vibes Only

New Years I spent at home with my fiance. Nothing crazy just chilled and slept. I did have a whole party to go to but the weather had other plans. Then I decided to go to my friend's house, but they decided to spend the "new year" coked out. I wasn't with the vibes and left. I don't understand coke. I don't understand why people do it but everyone can do whatever they want. I just know that's not what I want in my life especially right now. I want to create more for myself. Not saying my friends won't, but I don't want to be caught up in stuff like that. Maybe it was just the new year vibes they were on or the I don't give a fuck vibes, I don't know. What I do know is I hope all my friends find a balance with themselves and their choices. I'm here to support them if they need it but this year I'm going to be selfish. I'm going to care for myself before anyone else. I deserve to be selfish. I want to worry about my life and my choices and not others including my friends. I will forget my friend's choices and worry about me and my vibes. I still love them but I love me more. If they need me I'm here but for now, I'm JUST here.