I feel so alone
Yet I’m surrounded by so much
I feel so empty
Yet I’m filled with so much love
Why am I here?
Why do I feel like I don’t belong?
Why do I think this way?
They say “Be strong.“
They say “I’m always here for you!”
They say “You will hurt so many people if you kill yourself!”
They say “That’s so selfish!”
Yet
When I need them the most they aren’t strong enough to hear it - or don't want to
When I need them the most they are no where to be found - “you’ve reached the voicemail of” - for the sixth time this week
When I kill myself they show up to my funeral wondering why
“Why would she do this?”
“Why didn’t she just call?”
“Why is she so selfish?”
As I watch from above
I ask why
Why do you show up now when you couldn’t show up for me when I needed you the most?
Why did you answer the call to my death but not the call to prevent it?
I told you I felt so alone
And you said "Just be strong."
Be
Strong
Two words
So simple right?
But I am strong.
I'm here aren't I?
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